I picked up this book, as slightly morbid as this may seem when I heard an article about the author. She based some of the events of this book on a true life experience: Her rape at age 14.
As a girl who watches SVU (and I’m sure you do too), I was drawn to the realism of the situation and curious about how everything played out. Is that bad? I feel like kind of a sick perv saying that but I feel like I’m not alone here. Anyways, I ordered it off Amazon and received the book within two days. It’s been nominated for awards, called “The next Gone Girl,” and even recommended as a Skimm Read.
I agree with it being in the same category as Gone Girl for two reasons. 1) I couldn’t put down the book until I finished it. 2) The really disliked the main character.
The main character TifAni or “just Ani” has a serious borderline personality disorder. Even the book starts off with her calling herself a “cold-hearted bitch.” She is extremely manipulative, fake, and overly concerned with outward appearances. At times, I felt like she was giving me a complex. “I really should have worn mascara today to prove to my coworkers I’m someone to be reckoned with,” “I need to be a size zero when I get married,” “130 lbs at 5’3″ is squat!” Wait…what am I thinking? I kept pushing through it because I was hoping that her personality was a result of the terrible rape she endured at such a young age.
Alas, it seems like poor TifAni was doomed to be the person she grew up to be for so many other reasons. The book has an insane plot twist that I wasn’t expecting and I had to go back and reread the brutality of it because I was so shocked. I won’t spoil it here but you can find some good spoilers on Goodreads or tweet at me. After the entire situation, TifAni – the luckiest girl alive – is determined to make her own path in life, be successful, and fake it until she makes it.
However, at this point it was so contrived that I just wanted to get through the book to mark it as read on my list.
I give it a 2.5 out of 5 stars. It was an interesting book that kept me going through and I really feel for the author/main character. However, I just didn’t like any of the characters in the book.
I still have a lot of feels towards this book. If I was in the same situations would I have turned out like her? If she had a better mother would she have felt a stronger foundation enough to report the rape? Would even reporting the rape do anything or would it turn into another cover-up since her rapist was a wealthy family that already donated to her school? How the hell was her fiance so stupid and naive? Seriously, Arthur?! How much of this is actually true?